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O Lord, it is you who are my portion and cup; you yourself who secure my portion.”

Psalm 16:5

    Sometimes I allow myself to slip into fearful anxiety over money and finances. I begin to worry that I will not have enough money or resources to provide for myself now that I am retired. It is then I bring all of this worry and anxiety to God and surrender to Him.

   I also look back and remember how God provided for all my needs. This remembering helps me to trust in Jesus today to take care of me and my family's needs.

    When my mind is still, the Holy Spirit gently reminds me that God is my Provider. He knows what I need and He will not abandon me or leave me. He is in the middle of all my financial affairs. Jesus gently whispers: “Trust in me. Trust in my alone. I am your portion and your cup. I have secured your portion.”

   I repeat over and over again, “O Lord, it is you who are my portion and cup; you yourself who secure my portion.” Peace fills my heart and my mind. Jesus I trust in you.


 Take, Lord, and receive all my liberty, my memory, my understanding and my entire will, All I have and call my own. You have given all to me. To you, Lord, I return it. Everything is yours; do with it what you will. Give me your love and your grace. That is enough for me. Amen.” St. Ignatius of Loyola prayer





I desire mercy, not sacrifice, says the Lord, for I did not come to call the just but sinners.” Matthew 9:13

    I am so grateful that Jesus meets us where we are at. We don't have to perform all kinds of righteous deeds in order to get God to notice us. Jesus says, “Those who are healthy do not need a physician, but the sick do. I have not come to call the righteous to repentance but sinners.” Luke 5:32

    Jesus continues to call us. He continues to invite us to walk with Him hand in hand on this journey. Jesus doesn't force us but offers a perpetual invitation: “Come follow me.” He will never ever give up inviting us to surrender our lives to him.

    When I was lost in the cesspool of my own self-centered sinful life, Jesus was still calling me. I wasn't listening. In his mercy, Jesus allowed me to live in the cesspool for a few seasons, until through much anguish and pain I called out to Him. I finally took the cotton out of my ears and began to hear Jesus calling me to repentance. He took the mess of my life and transformed me. For me, the transformation process is on going and will be all the days of my life.

    When I meditate on the Stations of the Cross, tears sometimes well up in my eyes when for the love of me and you, Jesus suffered and died. I love Jesus so much and I only want to serve Him in all that I do and say.

   Even when I fall back into sin, Jesus holds out his hand and leads me to the door of the confessional where his mercy and forgiveness await me. I cry out: “Teach me your way O Lord, that I may walk in your truth.” Psalm 86.


Let us pray every day for conversion of hearts in ourselves and others. “I take no pleasure in the death of the wicked man, says the Lord but rather in his conversion, that he may live.”Ez 33: 11

He (Jesus) will keep you firm to the end, irreproachable on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is faithful, and by him you were called to fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.” 1 Corinthians: 8-9.

    Today, as I was driving home from town, I was listening to Relevant Catholic Radio. Of course, they were talking about the sex abuse scandal in the Church. I am grateful for Catholic Radio because I hear the truth not half-truths about current events.

    As I continued driving and listening to the radio, tears welled up in my eyes and I began to sob quietly. I said, “Oh Jesus I am so sorry that that we have sinned against You and Your Church causing Your heart to break. Jesus I am sorry for my part in the mess that the Church is in today. I will do whatever I can to make reparation for this horrible evil that has crept into Your Holy Catholic Church. I desire to console Your broken heart, Jesus.”

    This is a very difficult time for the Church and its members. Many people are hurting with a wide range of emotions. But its not the time to leave the Church. Its the time to fast, pray the Rosary, repent, forgive, and spend time before Our Eucharistic Lord in the Tabernacle. The Church is going through a painful purification process and it hurts deeply.

    When the light of Christ penetrates the evil darkness, then healing can begin. We are each called to pursue personal holiness and not succumb to discouragement and fear. We are called to be part of the solution not the problem. God is faithful and He will keep us firm to the end. Amen!

    During these most difficult times, lets take to heart Peter Our First Pope's words of wisdom: “Jesus ask the twelve apostles, “Do you want to leave?” Peter said, “Master, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We have come to believe and are convinced that you are the Holy One of God.”

    We will get through this difficult time if we remain faithful to Jesus Christ and His Church. Always remember what Jesus promised, “And I say to thee: That thou art Peter; and upon this Rock I will build my Church, and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.” Let us cling to Jesus' promise now more than ever. After this brutal purification, I believe we will experience a new springtime in the Church.


Oh my Jesus forgive us of our sin; lead all souls to Heaven especially those in most need of Your mercy.”



Obedience is better than sacrifice and submission than the fat of rams.” 1 Samuel 15:22

    Trying to obey and yield to those in authority is not something we like to do or find easy to do. But obeying our God, parents, teachers, and others in authority is something we are asked to do everyday.

    What helps me to grasp what it is to be obedient to God, is to study the life of Mary and Joseph in Scripture. Mary was obedient when she received the call from God through the angel that she would be with child.

    Mary did not understand the full meaning of the angel’s announcement; she placed her trust in God. She was obedient to God, the Father. God gave Mary free will just like He gives us free will to obey or not to obey.

    Mary proclaimed: “Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord. May it be done to me according to your word.”(Luke 1:38)

    When Joseph found out that Mary was with child, he decided to divorce her quietly so as not to expose her to shame. However in a dream, an angel of the Lord appeared to him and said: “Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary your wife into your home. For it is through the Holy Spirit that this child was conceived in her. She will bear a son and you are to name him Jesus because he will save his people from their sins.” (Matthew 1: 20-21)

   After Joseph woke from his dream he did as the angel of the Lord commanded him and took Mary into his home. Even though St. Joseph did not fully understand, he was obedient to what God was asking him to do.

    Obedience is something that requires me to surrender to God and to trust Him with the outcome. The more I surrender the situation to Him, the more God gives me the grace and the wisdom to be obedient to His most Holy Will.


And this is love: that we walk in obedience to his commands. As you have heard from the beginning, his command is that you walk in love.” 2 John: 1:6







   Sometimes I stop and reflect on the richness and depth of our beautiful Catholic faith. I am just so grateful and blessed to be part of God's family. God in his majesty and infinite wisdom has made a strong light for us to follow here on earth—His Church. Within the Church God has provided us with all that we need to reach our Heavenly home. He desires no one to ever be lost.

    However, sometimes I just take God's Church for granted and end up not appreciating the absolute awesomeness of God's love for us.

    I recently participated in the celebration of the Assumption of

Mary's feast day August 15th at the Cathedral of St. Helena. I was overwhelmed at the splendor of the liturgical celebration of honoring our Blessed Mother on her feast day.

    The young, old, children, and babies filled the pews to give honor and glory to God and to show their deepest love for Our Blessed Mother Mary. The only words I could say at the end of Mass was—“Thank you God for placing me in the midst of your Church with my brothers and sisters. I am so blessed.”

    I recently discovered a very short summary of our Catholic Faith and wanted to share it with you. Its a keeper and one to be shared:


The Seven Sacraments


by Rev. Francis Spirago

The life of the soul begins at Baptism, it is fortified by Confirmation, brought to perfection by the Holy Eucharist; if the life of the soul is lost, it is restored by Penance and Extreme Unction; it is kept up by Holy Orders and Matrimony from generation to generation.”



Thank you Heavenly Father for your son Jesus Christ and His Holy Catholic Church.


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23.10 | 21:08

I would like to receive i’m a catholic

23.10 | 18:50

Thank you for your straight to the point reflection. GOD Bless and good health

23.10 | 10:37

Beautiful Connie!

14.10 | 09:08

Connie, help me to be reminded to lean into the pain.